句点之后

太在乎了，就要放手。
嗯，我离家出走了。
不用太担心我。

要留言要找我的话就在学海里找吧。
最近有些事走不开，处理完了，就会离开了。
也要看看运气这回事。

离开了，就不想回来了。
呐，还记得我们的约定吗？
我一个都不敢忘，可是我们一个都没有做到。

要说失望还是什么，已经没有情绪了呢。
感情就像沙堡，轻轻碰一碰，就散了满地。
再也寻不回，拼不回。

我离开了你们。
在你们都离开我之后。

最后的最后，让我示弱，第一次，也是最后一次。
我很想念你们。
没有你们，我很寂寞。

再见，不再见。

上镜 :D

今天我上镜咯~
好紧张+刺激+兴奋哦~ XD
开拍之前是紧张的，因为是第一次嘛~
之后拍摄过程就是觉得很刺激，真的很好玩 :P

庆幸没有被骂还是做什么蠢事的 hehex
话说，我上镜的是第一集~ 不错不错~~
不过说真的，发现到原来拍电视节目还真是不简单~
他们的那些摄影道具都很yeng涅~ @#@
还有机会和FLY FM的 DJ 一起上镜~ ！

至于这个节目呢，应该不会那么快播出来吧~
因为才刚开始拍，还有那么多集要拍，
别忘了还有edit的过程……
我只是上镜第一集啦~之后的就是我的其他朋友了~
虽然只是一集，可还是很开心！ haha~

说了那么多，忘了说是什么节目 LOL
就是在Asian Food Channel (AFC) 的 Back To The Streets~!
敬请收看 xDD

哈啦~~

今晚就要正式演出了~~！
虽然不是什么很厉害的舞蹈，
可是也很开心可以在dataran merdeka 表演~ ^^

不过还是想要抱怨一下下啦 :P
有些些人就是总不要按照指示
然后害得事情乱七八糟，
结果大家都受连累咯~
跟着line走也会那么难，真是的 zzz
以前一定是没有操步的 （砸

话说回来，可能会在电视上出现哦~ xDD
可是也可能是一个小小粒罢了咯~ hehex
其实我也不懂哪一台 @@

这几天真的很累啦~
就因为这个的练习咯~=3=

还有一个好消息就是……
学校快要有一个舞蹈团了！^^
真的是等了好久好久~~ =ww=

journal??

lalala
very tired these few days...
and met some problems, unhappy >.<

anyway, it's good for me that i have the chance to dance again~
although just some simple moves which cannot be categorised as dancing too :P
and maybe (just maybe) you guys got to see me on tv! hahahx

hmmphh...
after i came to kl, only that i noe how scary is the human heart and brain.
most of the time i dunno what are they thinking about.
and i'm really afraid of betrayal...
somewhere somehow somethings have changed, but it's very hard to say
i really hope that it's just me thinking too much :P

last...
i miss you guys!! <3

nonsence :P

i wan my hair to grow longer and longer!!
hahax just sampat-ing :P
anyway, these days i noticed that...
those guys that noe how to play basketball WELL is really yeng~
and i mean really well haha! not just those lembik one :P
u noe why?
coz i went to s.o.x. competition not long ago~
then i found out this~ haha
and cheerleading is really really fun to me!
too bad so sad i dun have a chance to take part in that =3=

hmmphh still thinking of a good way to go back~
coz i really wana see the band on sports day and also the comp! > <
i've disappointed them for a few times and i really felt bad for that T^T
so i really dun wan to disappoint them again this time~
nw i hate my timetable LOL

"full of shit" hahax

Just some flashbacks today...
I've been hurted once on the Christmas Day of 2011
and my heart was broken into pieces during february.
The heart was broken so deep that it left scars there.
But now, for me, it's already over.
Its just that sometimes wounds do heal,
but the wounds wont heal completely.

Today i felt so surprised that when i think of u,
my message tone rang! @@
Nah, just becoz of seeing the scene that my frens holding hands,
walking together, i thought of our past. zzz
maybe the "linking" there wont just disappear like that haha

anyway, no matter i admit it or not,
but these things somehow will influence my view towards relationship
and also my attitude towards it.
i became more cautious and tend to keep my feelings deep down inside

ppl says that one will not do as much as the first relationship
i duno whether it's true (since i havnt experience the second one)
but i think that i still will do the best that i can.

frankly speaking, i some sort of liking my single life right now.
but u noe, humans are quite weird at some time
sometimes, i like to be single as more freedom
sometimes, i wished to be "not available" as i wished to have someone to stay beside me...
there are somethings that you cannot tell ur frens, even best frens
so there's the time that u hope that there's someone that you can talk to.

i felt unsure of my feeling towards someone.
i dunno my feeling towards u is just a simple best fren or more than that
you always cheer me up and support me no matter what
we had fun, we chat a lot, we talked about everything (most of it)
and u helped me a lot :)
maybe i'm in love with u? =X
we'll see as the time goes by and proves to me ;P

活

不懂为什么今天会回来。
本来就打算不看不闻不问了，反正很多事，都不是我能插手的。
结果，还是回来了。

习惯性无视好多东西。
无视简讯、无视消息、无视电邮、无视FB。
淡漠地活着，越活着，越不像一个人。

还能想还能选择要单纯还是成熟，只不过证明了你还是个单纯的人。
真正成熟了的人，已经身不由己。
怎么装，也装不了嫩。

长大了，好多东西开始不会太计较。
感情，不在乎的话，就变得廉价。
太在乎的话，只会让自己活得很累。

越活就觉得自己越活越过去了。
生活，总是要过的，少了谁多了谁并不能改变什么。
自己总是一个人，一个人来一个人走。

过了1个月多，单纯的，自己的生活。
还在迷茫，还在纳闷。
奇怪啊原来其实我疗伤的本领很差。
像太阳骑士，他能复活别人，却复活不了自己。
不死巫妖的结局里，他死掉了。
不可能死的审判被太阳复活，不可能死的太阳却没办法让别人复活他。

也其实，原来少了骑士道的骑士是不能活的。

不开心的时候，想想别人，反正世界上总有比自己更惨的人。
吁一口气，心情会轻松很多。
好过吸进一堆废气。

发烧发得乱七八糟的结果。
报告最近发生的事：
1）5月8日开学
2）最近补着化学
3）买了中六校服
4）辞掉了工作
5）泳琪驾着新的altis，好羡慕……
6）佳恩会去perak的matrikulasi
7）等着自己的车
8）习惯无视，无视就好
9）买了《吾命骑士6-不死巫妖（下）》
10）发高烧，差不多好了